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Man, I’m freaked out.  I feel absolutely no drive to better my situation right now.  I’ve felt like a shell of a man this last week.  I’m supposed to be writing blogs that help people out and cheer them up, and… nothing.  I’m scared.  But you know what, Go Fuck Yourself!

I know, who cares about this blod that noone will read, right?  But maybe that’s the message I’m looking for.  GOD IS ALWAYS HELPING US!  Right, so fuck it!  I’m happy.  I’m not really, but I am.  I have to do the things that have worked to make me happy.

 The problem is I’m all having this dialogue in my head as to whether or not I’ve been brainwashed.  I can’t get over the fact that some of my friends are in seemingly better positions than me and they didn’t quit drinking and doing drugs.  I just want to be happy.

 I think I’m really going to detail the relationship I want right now.

Love Alex

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